Tuesday, March 8, 2011

No rant, just the facts

The Arnold was fantastic.  Amazing athletes all around. Inspirational and very motivating.  If you have not ever been to the Arnold Classic you should put it on your calendar for next year.  But on to the facts...

Doing pretty well.  Have been wod ing pretty consistently, have been fairly clean and doing some extra cardio.   I have lost 8 lbs and 2% body fat since 2/28 (last monday).  I am still not where I was in November, but heading the right direction.  Now... as Ryan always reminds me... I will do well if I can just stick with it and not derail!  I have something special coming up that should keep me motivated at least a few more weeks. ;)

I have lost alot of strength... especially in my shoulder with the torn rotator cuff.  Today I tried to press and could only use 20 lbs... anything more and I couldn't even see straight from the pain and couldn't do a back squat at all due to the positioning of my shoulder.  But I can still clean and front squat. :) Most of my lifting is a bit limited now, but I'm doing as much as I can without massive pain!

Monday 3/7
10/8/6/4/2

Full squat clean and jerk (45#  since I'm working on form)
Burpee chest to bar pull ups (didn't go chest to bar, but didn't use a band either)
weighted box jumps 15# 20" box

5.3 mile run (IT band started hurting at mile 4 :(  )
30 push ups
30 ring rows
20 dips (banded)

Today

Box squat (had to do a front squat since I can't hold the bar on my back due to my shoulder) 3 rep max 95#

25 power cleans 65#
25 double unders
25 chest to bar jumping pull ups
2 rounds

30 ring rows, 20 dips, 30 push ups,  DL 1x5 185#, Bench press 3x5 65#, Press 3x5 20#
I should row... but it's getting late and I don't think I'm up to it. About ready to call 'time' for today. Have a great night all!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

I will not be that person...

So, ya... It's been a rough few months.  And I have nothing profound to say, but will post in the name of accountability as my peeps are bugging me about this.  Honoring brutal transparency I will confess that I have gained 15 pounds and my body fat has increased 5 points since my low of 21% in November.  This is DIRECTLY related to lack of exercise consistency and over the top, incredibly hideous, dealing with stress food binges.  I accept total responsibility.  Which, in all honesty, sucks.  I think I liked it better when I saw myself through different glasses... the ones that skewed the mirror for me, the ones that just ignored the scale and surrounded myself with all the glory of our standard excuses:

"I don't have time, it's genetic, it's only because I had  babies, I've tried EVERYTHING and it just doesn't work for me, I'll have plenty of time later, I do exercise and eat healthy... and on and on and on"

I can still use them to delude myself long enough to skip a workout or stuff my face... but I KNOW the reality of the situation. And if I get confused I can review the pictures posted here! :(

I will admit though, sometimes it is hard to weed out excuses and hard reality. Yes, I have come a LONG way from where I started.  (BF was at 49% if you can imagine!).  Yes, I am 42 years old.  Yes, I may have bad genes, shoulder issues, knee issues (one is a bad running knee, the other dislikes box jumps LOL).  All these may be true... but they can also become excuses.  It's hard.

This weekend I head out to the Arnold Classic... what a humbling experience... ya , even worse than just participating in my daily wod.  No one there knows my story and they probably don't care.  And in all reality, they probably don't even notice me at all... but in my head every person there is thinking... what is that overweight old lady doing out there?  Who is she to be judging Tanya Wagner (CrossFit Games 2009 Fittest Woman on Earth) on reps? (Yep... I got to judge her at regionals last year... INSANE!)  It's all in my head... it's all my own issues... the constant battle. But I will go... that is how I win the battle.  I go, I wod, I blog.  I SHOW UP and the head game is (mostly) won!

I will not be the person that has an excuse for every little failure.  I accept responsibility and am going to move forward.

Ok... this week has been good/bad.  I've been eating Chipotle w my awesome coupons.  I know this is not the ideal way to go about this... but it has been a good jump start (she says as visions of choc chip cookies dance through her head).  I have been eating once a day, other than a few nuts in the evening.  But I have been clean all week!  It's a start.

WOD's

2/28
30 deadlifts @ 95
30 burpees
30 pistols (band assisted)
30 pull ups (back on the bands w a shoulder issue)
2 rounds for time
2 miles on treadmill (first run since September)

3/1
some convoluted thing with box jumps and front squats... lol
then 60 OHS for time
Then run 2.5 miles, 30 ring rows, 20 strict (banded) pull ups

3/2
6 push ups
9 box jumps
21 pull ups (banded)
21 ring dips (banded)

3/3
Power Elizabeth
21/15/9
Power cleans @ 75#
Dips (banded)
30 ring rows, 3 mile run